Healing with Christ in the Present from the Past for the Future
These 8 God-given human desires are written in every heart and are basic needs for survival and flourishing*.
to be seen
to be heard and understood
to be chosen
to be affirmed
to be touched
to be safe
to be blessed
to be loved
When these basic desires are not met during our development or in primary relationships, they can and do lead to false conclusions and ideas about ourselves. Thus, a set of core beliefs is created that are carried through into our adult life. Perceptions and expectations rooted in such wounds result in behaviors that come to affect our relationships—with others, God, and ourselves—and not in a positive way.
This leaves a restless desire, a yearning to heal such wounds; though we may not know where they evolved from, we know the pain. The pain so familiar becomes likened to a dimmed flashing warning beacon, an intermittent reminder we are faulty somehow. When such desires are not met by others in the present, we react from a jolt of shame and the grief stored up within those buried memories, now becoming the driver of our perceptions and expectations, leading to disappointments and reactive negative behaviors..
"Our lives are shaped by the things we desire."
Thomas Merton
"Our hearts are restless until they can find rest in you."
Augustine of Hippo
How do we bring this pain to God, who desires to heal us and is the only One who could fulfill those desires completely, when we are experiencing either shame* from sins upon us, or guilt from difficulty in forgiving or our reactive unintentional or intentional sins or upon others? Most of us have difficulty knowing what and why it is happening to us, no less trying to talk about it.
*From sin inflicted upon us, we experience shame from sin; from our sin upon ourselves and others we experience guilt.
For it is a sin that begets more sin (sin is moving away from grace and love), lending a sense of endless hopelessness and despair if we dare to tell the truth of such fears. We desire to be heard by our God. He wants us to talk to him, and we desire Him to listen.
"I cried out to God for help. I cried out to God to hear me." Psalm 77: 1-2
"Give ear and come to me, hear me that your soul may live." Isaiah 55:33
We desire God to take away our pain, afraid to consider its roots. We want to hide from it. It is a pain we do not even know how to express its depth and breadth, or even where it resides with us, or how it came to be. We want to be delivered from it and removed instantly without our effort, for we are tired, exhausted from those shadows we shun.
We pray for healing, and when God does not respond as we expect, we fall into a downward spiral with a cacophony of voices filling our minds, reinforcing thoughts of our unworthiness. We experience disappointment, frustration, doubt, grief, despair, and a loss of hope. Yet it is only God who could fulfill those unmet desires if we only let Him in His way.
Faith heals the intellect
Hope heals our memories
Love heals the will
We need to be reminded of the reality that began at our creation and continues in every moment of our existence of where God has been, is, and will be. In being dreamt of and created by God, we were chosen to be included in His human and Trinitarian family, touched by His breath, blessed with gifts, affirmed as good and faithful servants, and held safely in His arms. At the same time, as He knitted us in our mother's womb, He continues in every moment of our existence in loving us, for we are seen and will be heard and understood.
WE ARE KNOWN
We were chosen, yes, we are still chosen, and we will be chosen for He continues to call.
Acknowledging unfulfilled human desires at critical times in our lives, either due to sins of intent or omission by others, created wounds that can become triggered in the present, is the first step, even though we do not know yet what is behind the pain. It is to not run away from the pain.
For God is already there in the pain, waiting to comfort. Here we are called to take a leap of faith, to be open, to trust in facing those wounds that will be unbound by Him. We are invited to invite Him in.
Even though using our free will to take the leap of trust, we may experience fear of 'what will be expected of us' – to 'forgive?' "Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us." Yet how do we begin to forgive when those sins upon us have caused us such unbearable pain? And not knowing why we automatically react to certain things either by freezing or boiling with anger from something seemingly unrelated? It is as if we cannot find a way out, for we are locked in fear when triggered at the mere thought of looking into that abyss.
We must speak the truth to God and take courage from His grace, especially when we are afraid and confused.
Healing: Walk with Jesus
It is in letting Jesus gently walk you through - holding your hand – you step together into those hidden shadows that we have trembled to go alone. And rightly so, we should not go there alone.*
I will be with you always. Do not be afraid.
There we let Him touch our wounds. Let Him gently unfold those frozen places to bring His light of healing. Through shame due to the sins of others, we can now see through His eyes with compassion – we can come to know who we truly are in Him and allow His grace to be the salve as the way to forgive so as to be unburdened. There our hearts, once hollowed out by our own guilt, can now be transformed through Him into a loving contrite heart that overflows with His merciful grace.
Interior Steps
Aware, understand, and commit.
Ask to become aware of your desires and needs.
Ask to understand them, and if need be, ask for healing of the wounds.
Ask for the grace to see through Christ's eyes, to feel, speak and act with the mind of Christ to forgive others, to accept forgiveness, and forgive yourself.
*Due to the intensity of reflecting upon one's unmet desires, I recommend your spiritual director accompany you through these; or if you have experienced or are experiencing anxiety or depression, you be accompanied along by your Catholic therapist or if you do not have one, to seek one out before you begin a self-directed retreat.
Do I need support from a friend in Christ?
In working with a spiritual director, you may cover:
What were my God-given desires?
Were they disordered or inordinate?
Could it be that my faulty or non-virtuous behavior are reactive from a misplaced or mistaken perception of who I truly am?
What are my attachments...that I attach to or that it (they) attached to me?
What faulty core beliefs are hiding within about myself or about others?
What unmet desire is holding back my interior freedom?
If there is a wound, am I ready to walk into it with Jesus' help? Ask for the help.
What can we do day by day?
What can we do when our present desires are not being met? First is to become aware of when our present desires are not being met by others, and to reflect on how we have responded in thought and behavior to such unmet desires. More often than not, our awareness kicks in after we have reacted in a way that was not our best self.
An increase of awareness comes naturally as we develop a virtuous habit of reflection in the prayer of a daily Examen. Here we look to train our brain to prepare and to recognize (come online quicker and more effectively) when we then to lead with reactive behaviors.
The Eight Desires Examen
The Examen is a daily prayer of recollection, a review of the day of who we encountered, of God's presence and action, and how we responded to the gifts of Himself, of creation, and of others. We ask God to help us see what He desires to show us so as to come to grow in holiness when those deepest desires He planted in us have been met or not.
The EXAMEN Prayer has 5 Movements.
Gratitude – Thanksgiving for the day's graces and gifts.
Guidance –Ask the Holy Spirit to reveal the day through Christ's eyes and for what He most wants you to take note of.
Review – Who and/or what did you encounter? Discern the Holy Spirit's leading.
Reflect - How did you respond? Why? Share your thoughts and feelings about what came up. Listen for the Spirit's guidance.
Request - Share your concerns about tomorrow, and ask specifically for what you need help. Commit to taking guided action.
Suggested Questions for Review, Reflect and Request
1. Who did I encounter today?
2. What were the graces and gifts received?
3. Of the eight desires, which one ________________(or more) was met today – by God, by others, by self?
How were they met?
What was my reaction/action /behavior?
What feelings and thoughts came up as they were met?
What memories were triggered in having my desire(s) met?
Notice how God calls you to more of the same desires to meet them for others.
Who did I listen to and understand?
Who did I affirm and bless?
Who felt safer with me, to be included in friendship?
4. Of my 8 desires which one(s) _____________ was/were not met today –by others, by self, or perceived as not met by God?
What 'problem' or concern(s) came up?
What emotion(s) was/were triggered?
What were the feelings or the felt feelings of those emotions?
What were my thoughts?
What was my reaction/action/behavior?
What were my expectations?
Were they true or fitting the situation?
Was it disordered or inordinate?
What was the truth in the situation: of the person, of myself, of God?
5.Of those ___ unmet desires, ask God to walk with you to the past or current wound for healing and forgiveness for others and for yourself.
Scriptures for Healing
El Roi means "The God who sees me."
Ro'iy in the original Hebrew can be translated as shepherd or as seeing, looking, or gazing.
Psalm 139:13-16
You formed my inmost being;
you knit me in my mother's womb.
I praise you, because I am wonderfully made;
wonderful are your works!
My very self you know.
My bones are not hidden from you,
When I was being made in secret,
fashioned in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw me unformed;
in your book all are written down;
my days were shaped, before one came to
Call of Jeremiah
The word of the Lord came to me:
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
before you were born I dedicated you,
a prophet to the nations I appointed you
"Ah, Lord God!" I said,
"I do not know how to speak. I am too young!"
But the Lord answered me,
Do not say, "I am too young."
To whomever I send you, you shall go;
whatever I command you, you shall speak.
Do not be afraid of them,
for I am with you to deliver you—oracle of the Lord.
Ps 4:9
In peace, I will lie down and fall asleep,
for you alone, Lord, make me secure.
If you find you desire more support, "Healing Through Grace" maybe for you. See link for more information.
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The Seven Desires of the Laaser's*
The book Desires by Mark and Debbie Laaser lists seven desires and deep yearnings within the human heart. Their counseling work is based on the teachings of Virginia Satir; they found in her model that our behavioral, relational, and psychological problems were symptoms of something deeper – our unmet desires. Their seven desires are:
to be heard and understood
to be chosen
to be safe
to be included
to be affirmed
to be blessed
to be touched
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